My Midlife Crisis

So many amazing things have changed in my life.  I lost weight, got healthy, I tapped into my writing in a way I didn’t imagine was possible and most importantly, I realized how truly amazing I am.  I have more confidence in myself now than I have ever had.  I am living alone and I feel like I can do anything.  The world is wide open waiting for me to do what I will. 

In so many aspects of my life I know exactly what I want.  I want to continue to write in the hopes that people continue to find my work relatable and entertaining.  I will continue to learn more about myself and reach inside me so that I may help others do the same.  I just want to share my experience and encourage people to look to themselves for strength and love.

It is wonderful when you see the person you truly are and have the strength to change the aspects that aren’t really working.  You can change the way you view yourself and your world.  You open yourself up to a whole new world of experiences and opportunities.  Sometime you have to let things go, things you realized were holding you back, people who view you negatively because you focus on yourself and what is best for you.

My son jokingly refers to this period in my life as my midlife crisis.  He isn’t entirely incorrect.  Just before I turned thirty seven I had become wholly unsatisfied with who I had become and the lack of focus in my life.  I am merely a shadow of the girl I was.  I am now a woman who has a much stronger grasp of who she is, what she wants and what she deserves.  I made a lot of physical and emotional changes.  I acknowledged, for the first time in my life, that it was okay to want things for myself.  I should always continue to strive to obtain what I want. 

I am more determined and in touch with why I want what I do and although I sometimes struggle trying to determine how best to approach something, I am always learning and growing, even in my failed attempts, which makes them more profound lessons and not really failures at all.  I am more honest, braver and less reckless than I was when I was younger.  By developing a deep respect for myself I am able to view the world more optimistically.

I have changed so much, in so many ways that I can’t really argue that I might be in the middle of a midlife crisis but I am having the most proactive midlife crisis ever.  I am having an awesome time and I am in an amazing place in my life. I would change what I am experiencing for the world.

 

 

Posted by trjensen on July 5, 2011

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