I have been dealing with a lot of extra stress lately. Somehow I have managed to keep losing weight instead of piling the pounds back on. I have been able to focus on other things. I have been busy writing, visiting friends and trying to pull some semblance of a holiday together for my son and myself. I have just had stuff to do. Worrying about a pretty significant financial debt owed to me by the last guy I dated is the last thing on my mind. True that money would ensure I could in fact get gifts for my loved ones but it is the holidays and I just don’t want stay focused on getting money I am just not going to see before Christmas. I am sad that the holiday will be a little thinner than usual but I am just trying not to think about it for now.
I have also been struggling a little bit emotionally because the same guy is posting near daily statuses about his relationship with the mother of his child and how happy he is. I am glad he is happy but reading about how he has never been happier in his life hurts me more than I am willing to admit. Not having to read the posts was an easy fix. I just unsubscribed to his Facebook feed I have no idea if he is blissful or dying. Done and done!
My son, whom I love dearly, is still taking up residence in my living room. He is making no effort to find a job or another place to live and with my financial situation in dire straits it is adding unwanted and unneeded anxiety to what is typically my favorite and happiest time of the year.
I try not to talk about any of this much. It is the holidays and I am certain I have lessons to learn from these experiences, aside from the obvious. I am struggling for a reason although right now I am not exactly sure why. I always figure it out eventually. I need to address all of these issues. And the time will come when I have to get my money back and lay down the law with my son but I am just not willing to do that before Christmas.
- Never loan money to someone you are dating regardless of how awesome and sweet you think he is.
- If your son moves out of the house, don’t just let him move back in without a deadline.
- Don’t ever assume people will do what is best for you. They do what is best for them and then think of you.