First let me say I have to do this.  It isn’t a full retraction; it is however an apology for hurting someone’s feelings because mine were hurt and quite frankly I was more than a little pissed off.  Regardless of what I am feeling now I meant what I said about caring and I never want to hurt someone I care about based largely on assumptions regardless of whether or not they are based on fact.

You know who you are,

I was surprised when IM’d me today, after reading my blog, upset about the fact I felt you would not repay your debt to me.  I did my best to explain why I felt the way I did.  I am hurt.  I am angry.  I am listening to other people and didn’t take you at your word.  Regardless of the excuse my assumptions that you had no intention of repaying me were just that, assumptions.  I should have given you the benefit of the doubt.

The thing is the direr my financial situation became the more stressed and worried I was about the money.  I could just use it but you don’t have it and if you say you will pay me back then I am going to take you at your word.  You have never been dishonest with me and I had no right to doubt you.

You’ve almost completely turned your back on me and it was easy for me to assume that was because you have no intention of paying me back.  Today you told me you would and I believe you.  I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings.  My only defense is I am hurt too.  That is a pretty juvenile excuse and the truth is I am better than that.  I was happy when we were together and I guess I am hurt more than I want to admit that we are not anymore.

I am sorry.

T